New Meditations (07.14.16)

I'm taking part in the new meditation series hosted by Oprah and Deepak... It's intense and taught me that I'm a terrible meditator because my brain wanders like a baby Ibex on a cliffside looking for water. I'm a good breather but my brain wanders, that's all it is. And, I've noticed just how stressed I am. Dude, I am so bad at this... but I'm getting better... this new self I'm inventing at the moment. Woot!

But, man, HE IS GOOD! Well, God is good, but this man, wow! Deepak from Getting Unstuck is really awesome. I was pissed this morning, angry because... well, the awards shows always had the issue of being TOO WHITE and though the Emmys are including Black people now, they're forgetting there's a SPECTRUM OF PEOPLE out there between Black and White. It's never been the issue of White people against Black people, it's ALWAYS been the issue of a colorblind Hollywood and entertainment industry.

I had a friend who asked, "Why don't the Asian people just try harder for the roles?"

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MOST ASIAN ROLES ARE CAST TO WHITE PEOPLE for BUDGET purposes. Just because there hasn't been a popular Asian show doesn't mean they won't be popular. It probably means that when there is a good drama out there, they will WIPE OUT ALL COMPETITION because they are more determined to succeed!! And I've been in cable networks pitching rooms... THEY KNOW IT and yet, they're too scared to be the first. Even AMC, which took a risk with 'Mad Men'...

So... there's nothing left to do but to keep writing and pitching and pray that my AWESOME shows can be picked up. Because, I CAN GUARANTEE a steady audience and high ratings... cuz I'm THAT MUCH MORE determined to succeed.

Ya feel me?

Falling For My Hook-Up! (07.12.16)

Alright, so that's a catchy title right? Well, it's not a complete lie. I mean, I have fallen for a guy who originally met me intending me to be a hook-up. It ended when we talked things through. He was kind and let me go. But after he gave me my first kiss and make out.

YEAH. Try to forget that!

So, two months later, he texts me offering me more. I bit, cuz I still wanted the guy, but things progressed super fast and I got super scared. So, I broke things off for a while... And after being with someone else for a few dates, I contacted him and he responded.

We met up and he was drunk... so bad. So I left. And when we met again, he apologized and held onto me as much as he could. He spend the day with me, made me dinner, and then we parted. And... though I know it has to end soon, I don't know how to let him go because... I think I've fallen for him.

This comment made by "Tom Segura: Mostly Stories" is TOO TRUE:

"And ladies, the key to your man's heart is through HIS taint! Now, if you don't know, the taint is that little strip of land between a man's balls and his butthole. Also known as the Devil's Driveway."

I'm proud to say that I already knew that. LOL. That's right, my hook-up told me so. LOL!!

*BTW: Someone told me to go on hiatus from blogging... but... that's just weird to me... so, I'm back!

Hiatus Over!

I was told I had to take a hiatus. That was weird because I didn't think I'd even done enough to need one. So... I took the hiatus, I relaxed as best as I could, but, in the end, I ended up doing MUCH MORE than I had intended to?

The man who gave me my first kiss texted me on my birthday, I met up with him the next day and was pushed into much more than I thought I'd do. I saw him Friday and it was all the more interesting. But, it was the end because we still want different things...

Then, I went through a hellish week, cuz everyone obsesses when they can't have the man they want. But I met someone else before I could make any mistakes, and now... I'm working hard on moving on. What an emotional trip it was...

So... Going to work on more stuff now! Hoping for more fun soon!

Anyways... HAPPY INDEPENDENCE DAY!!!

Caught My Eye (06.15.16)

Happy birthday, Dad. You're another year older, and I know you that much less. You did instill in me a love for books, not by anything you did, of course, but because libraries were my safe haven and new adventure when you walked away from my life those years ago. And, though your presence has been spotty through the years, here's a campaign I noticed and will support because more kids deserve the haven I found those years ago.

I know it seems weird, blogging about a man I barely know and share a lot of DNA with, BUT his life choices got me to where I am now; not living at home, working at a job that I somewhat like, looking for a man that is NOT like him to marry, and never wanting children. I feel like this world is hard enough... why should I depress another kid by bringing them into the world, right?

Anyways... all the best to you this week. Life is short so enjoy it to the fullest. RIP Grandpa and RIP Christina Grimme. #youwillbemissed