Voting Woes (11.07.16)

I received terrifying news yesterday, when I ventured home to fill out my voting ballot and see my Mom, Dad, and sister.

I was very angry with my mother told me that my father was voting for Donald Trump. For a man to be in a family of all women, I felt very strange that he was voting for a man who discriminates against women. And then she justified his voting reasons by stating that the Chinese church was going to vote for Donald Trump. 

She went on to say that under Obama's presidency homosexuals gained marriage privileges, Tran-sexual bathrooms were created, and the republican view was lost to mankind in violation of the rights of the people.

My response that I could not voice to her was to tell the church to go save the voters because one man cannot affect change on the country the way multiple can. Also, it is foolish to blame the change of the world's views on Obama. If would be like blaming the loss of the world to be all Christian on Jesus. It's ridiculous and hardly possibly the truth. 

Like any body of people being governed, why are we separated by such harsh lines and views? If you really take a poll of Christian people and their beliefs, more than half would be democratic, due to the way the Church is structured and run. And yet, it has more to do with the radical and heretic ideas Republicans make about Democrats that really is the issue of why the Church maintains a Republican stance. 

I mean... if Trump wants to ship Mexicans back across the border, how much time will it be before he ships Asians back across the sea? I mean, didn't they even watch the presidential debate?! How could you trust the country to such a spiteful, materialistic, and judgemental man who actually benefits from and celebrates the 7 deadly sins?? He doesn't follow the 10 commandments... he's treats women poorly... he spreads more hate than love... I doubt Jesus would vote for him, today. 

The reason I bring this up is because... do you know how many Chinese people there are out there? A LOT!! And yet, they've been lead astray, into believing that Trump is for God, Country, and mankind. 

Perhaps this makes me a Rino (Republican In Name Only)... but I'm voting Hillary Clinton. I'd rather vote for someone who is open to affecting change than someone who will never. Though she's not the best, she's the lesser of two evils, to be honest. Personally, Bernie Sanders ~ ALL THE WAY!!!

Seriously, now... I'm a MINORITY CHRISTIAN WOMAN... Who did you think I would choose?

The Most Wonderful Loss (10.31.16)

I've been asked before... why not go out "Trick Or Treat"-ing or hanging with friends or dressing up and going to parties... WeHo is, most likely, popping and yes, a lot of people have invited me out... but, I wanted to rest and post this instead.

I know most of you don't understand Mandarin, Chinese... but here are the last videos of the most wonderful man I lost in June...

To be honest, his love story is so cute to me! When he and my grandma were married, they didn't speak the same language. So, because Chinese was written the same way just pronounced differently, they spent the first year or so just writing to each other. Then, they travelled to Taiwan together, had children, and grand children, and that's the group I'm in!

The world lost a wonderful man and scholar. Isn't he so cute? Hehe... I miss him.

May he Rest In Pease.

Long Distance Savior (08.17.16)

Good day all!! OMG!! I hate playing the field as a woman. Do you have any idea how terrible it is to do it as a woman that men find another slab of meat?! ... It's terrifying and really sad because of those who call and those who don't.

Anyways, on August 10th (2016), HE sent me a lovely message in Chinese on OkCupid but I hadn't read Chinese in so long, I didn't understand a word of it. And because OkCupid wouldn't let me copy the message into a translator, I asked him to translated it into English. He responded kindly and then I asked to WeChat because it has a built-in translator. (Woot!)

We started chatting and everything he said slowly sewed up my broken heart. Each compliment, each line, each run, I couldn't help but feel seduced and enticed, until I found myself falling, gently, for this man from Hong Kong. So far away, and yet, he was closer to me than any man had ever managed to get.

I went from seeing 7 men at the same time, all in rotation, totaling 9 total in my lifetime... after being active on the dating scene for... 1.5 months... Yeah... FAST!! and loose... and I hated it!! but it seemed to be the only way to find someone...

One week was all it took for me to consider him seriously for marriage. I eliminated all others for him... Seven days were enough to test our feelings, connection, and strengthen our love. It sound silly, it's ridiculous if you think about it, and yet... it's strangely the only thing that's keeping me afloat.

Did I mention he's coming out to visit me in September? To meet my family and friends... To date me and get to know me enough... so when I go visit him, I can meet his parents and friends in October... so... yeah... :)

Upside... Many connections in HK want to work with me... but he's my first priority if this pans out...

Wish me luck?

New Meditations (07.14.16)

I'm taking part in the new meditation series hosted by Oprah and Deepak... It's intense and taught me that I'm a terrible meditator because my brain wanders like a baby Ibex on a cliffside looking for water. I'm a good breather but my brain wanders, that's all it is. And, I've noticed just how stressed I am. Dude, I am so bad at this... but I'm getting better... this new self I'm inventing at the moment. Woot!

But, man, HE IS GOOD! Well, God is good, but this man, wow! Deepak from Getting Unstuck is really awesome. I was pissed this morning, angry because... well, the awards shows always had the issue of being TOO WHITE and though the Emmys are including Black people now, they're forgetting there's a SPECTRUM OF PEOPLE out there between Black and White. It's never been the issue of White people against Black people, it's ALWAYS been the issue of a colorblind Hollywood and entertainment industry.

I had a friend who asked, "Why don't the Asian people just try harder for the roles?"

...

MOST ASIAN ROLES ARE CAST TO WHITE PEOPLE for BUDGET purposes. Just because there hasn't been a popular Asian show doesn't mean they won't be popular. It probably means that when there is a good drama out there, they will WIPE OUT ALL COMPETITION because they are more determined to succeed!! And I've been in cable networks pitching rooms... THEY KNOW IT and yet, they're too scared to be the first. Even AMC, which took a risk with 'Mad Men'...

So... there's nothing left to do but to keep writing and pitching and pray that my AWESOME shows can be picked up. Because, I CAN GUARANTEE a steady audience and high ratings... cuz I'm THAT MUCH MORE determined to succeed.

Ya feel me?