Falling For My Hook-Up! (07.12.16)

Alright, so that's a catchy title right? Well, it's not a complete lie. I mean, I have fallen for a guy who originally met me intending me to be a hook-up. It ended when we talked things through. He was kind and let me go. But after he gave me my first kiss and make out.

YEAH. Try to forget that!

So, two months later, he texts me offering me more. I bit, cuz I still wanted the guy, but things progressed super fast and I got super scared. So, I broke things off for a while... And after being with someone else for a few dates, I contacted him and he responded.

We met up and he was drunk... so bad. So I left. And when we met again, he apologized and held onto me as much as he could. He spend the day with me, made me dinner, and then we parted. And... though I know it has to end soon, I don't know how to let him go because... I think I've fallen for him.

This comment made by "Tom Segura: Mostly Stories" is TOO TRUE:

"And ladies, the key to your man's heart is through HIS taint! Now, if you don't know, the taint is that little strip of land between a man's balls and his butthole. Also known as the Devil's Driveway."

I'm proud to say that I already knew that. LOL. That's right, my hook-up told me so. LOL!!

*BTW: Someone told me to go on hiatus from blogging... but... that's just weird to me... so, I'm back!

Hiatus Over!

I was told I had to take a hiatus. That was weird because I didn't think I'd even done enough to need one. So... I took the hiatus, I relaxed as best as I could, but, in the end, I ended up doing MUCH MORE than I had intended to?

The man who gave me my first kiss texted me on my birthday, I met up with him the next day and was pushed into much more than I thought I'd do. I saw him Friday and it was all the more interesting. But, it was the end because we still want different things...

Then, I went through a hellish week, cuz everyone obsesses when they can't have the man they want. But I met someone else before I could make any mistakes, and now... I'm working hard on moving on. What an emotional trip it was...

So... Going to work on more stuff now! Hoping for more fun soon!

Anyways... HAPPY INDEPENDENCE DAY!!!

Second Date (05.23.16)

OMG! HE'S GOING TO DUMP ME!! THAT MUST BE IT!! OMG!! IT'S OVER SO SOON!!

Well, we're going on our second date. It's going to be in a public space because, OMG, pretty much ALL OF MY FRIENDS were FURIOUS that I went on a date without letting them ALL know!! Although the guy didn't take an advantage of me, if chose to, no one would know! So, yup... I requested a movie during the day time, and he said yes, rather reluctantly.

So, in my over-thinking mind, he's either going to dump me or think I'm lame and boring AND THEN break off our this side of the relationship.

Oh, and don't even get me started on what we're doing. ... Apparently, because this is our second date and we're only "seeing" each other, not "dating". So, the guy I want to kiss is "seeing" me but he can be seeing multiple people at the same time. Which means I should, too, right? Except, I have no idea how to do any that!

So, after my first kiss on my first date, I'm going to be dumped on our second date because I'm too boring for him. Yup. That's how things are going... in my mind.

How is your week so far??

Oh, and here's Ed and me at it again!! Yaaaaaay!!

FIRST KISS (@.@)!!!

I HAD MY FIRST KISS... I had my first kiss!! I've been kissed. At the tender age of 30... I was finally kissed.

THAT'S not how the first kiss was... But, that's similar to how the last kiss was...

In my mind's eye... I think that's how it happened...

We were seated by a man-made lake and waiting for the sunrise... Aside from the pure anxiety I felt, he was warm, friendly, and he kissed me. From there, I did my best to keep up with him but, when I dropped a few walls, it became much more natural.

Now, I can't wait to kiss him again...