FIRST KISS (@.@)!!!

I HAD MY FIRST KISS... I had my first kiss!! I've been kissed. At the tender age of 30... I was finally kissed.

THAT'S not how the first kiss was... But, that's similar to how the last kiss was...

In my mind's eye... I think that's how it happened...

We were seated by a man-made lake and waiting for the sunrise... Aside from the pure anxiety I felt, he was warm, friendly, and he kissed me. From there, I did my best to keep up with him but, when I dropped a few walls, it became much more natural.

Now, I can't wait to kiss him again...

Personality... Splits? (05.18.16)

You ever had a time where your emotions just overrode everything and suddenly, you found yourself very different and unlike yourself? So much so that this personality is given a name and assumes it as you watch on? Not like "Fight Club" but more like, I'm watching as the other side is controlling me.

That's right... I have a few of them under my skin. There's super bubbly and enthusiastic me... and then, the conservative Christian me... then, there's the traditional me and the angry/enraged me... last, though, with her own name and all... a side of me I didn't know was so active until recently... But... Who will save me from these strong personalities? Just so that I can become me... who I was meant to be.

Know what I mean?

Babies on the Mind! (05.13.16)

Do you see this baby? Do you see how cute she is?! Do you see her cute little cheeks, her hose, her chin, her double chin, her tummy, her fingers, and her ever so slight frown? This is my baby niece!! Isn't she adorbs?! I mean, from the thin hair atop her head to her little fingers and toes, she just has so much personality!! She smiles when she sees you and then is near tears when you leave her alone! She is happy and then sad and then, in between!

If I had children one day, I'd want them to be as adorable as she was!! She was actually entered in a competition!! Here is the LINK to the competition!!! To vote for her, you have to email your top 5 picks to THIS email address!! You will also have to give your name, address, and phone number because that's how they make sure there are no duplicate voting, which means you can only vote once!! Just so you know, she is #21, #23, and #24!! I also really like the baby with glasses, despite the lack of expression on him... and #11, the yoga one!! So cute!!

Anyways, please have a great week and be happy! Don't forget to spread the joy and love to those around you!! BERNIE SANDERS ftw! :D

Another Week... Fly By Faster!! (SPOILERS!!)

I called it, didn't I?? Team Captain America I called it and... oooooooooh!! Even without watching it, I was right!! That's right, Chris Evans, I'm on your team! HAHAHA!!

Another episode of the CoTangent is up!! Please check it out if you have the time!!



So... I'm going to put something out there that you might not care much about and you might not want to read about, but I'm still going to put it out there! Ok... deep breath!!

I am a K-Pop fan and I've always been a fan of BigBang, 2PM, 2ne1, Girl's Day, BTS, BAP, and Block B and so on. Recently, of course, iKon! Yes!! But, as much as I like these bands... their fans are quite horrible. And for me, I think of fans to be a reflection of the bands... and yet, it's BigBang fans that are the meanest people out there. I'm not sure why.

So, to share my love of kPop, I gathered some of my non-kPop fan friends to do reaction videos with me. And the first few were alright, and they started to like them. But we started doing requests and since then, everything has changed. I can't control their reactions so, when they react naturally, the RainBridge Youtube channel got a HUGE backlash. And, well, it has just kept getting worse.

So, I've spoke with various people about how to get less of the negative responses, and maybe toning down some of our natural reactions, but no one is willing to tone their reactions down. I know that the RainBridge family is busy right now, so it's okay if we don't do Reaction vids, but I wanted to do them because I wanted to share something I loved with people I loved. ... In the end, my friends are just too ignorant of the Korean culture (... it's not like they have a chance to learn about it here, anyway) and the Korean people that give us negative comments are just too ignorant of the American culture (... not sure if they have a way of learning about it more over there...). So, in the end, it's a lose/lose situation for me.

I recently sat down to chat with the head producers of the channel and they said it was fine just letting go of the project altogether for a while. I mean, it never made money... it was just to gather up, eat together, and then shoot some videos together because we all had time.

Oh, and another thing, I got SERIOUS backlash because I commented about the "Loser" by BigBang video being too plain. ... I mean... COME ON... Given the high production value of their past videos, I felt this one fell short by a long shot of the extravagance and brilliance of BigBang music videos. Where was the symbolism?! Where was that in-depth meanings and metaphors?! Anyhoo, that's not where I take issue. I'm calling BigBang out for their portrayal of what makes a loser. Okay, shooting LA... I'll ignore that implication, but to shoot TaeYang in a RV... that's implying [FOR THOSE OF US WHO DON'T UNDERSTAND KOREAN] that anyone that lives in a RV is a loser... and I'm not down with that. Also, having "American kids" beat up Daesung in a parking lot... WTF? Shoot that crap in Korea, where your fans won't make the connection of LA being such a terrible place. Not to mention... what's with all the White girls breaking their hearts?! ... I feel like Korean boybands have a serious White Girl fantasy fetish that always ends in heartbreak. Snd since they project that, their fans take it in and are affected by it. BLEH!!

Also... When was the last time BigBang did charity work? ... Know what I mean by the cause and effect now?? For example... BEYONCE. Check out the stats on the Queen Bey HERE!! She's at the top of the world because she's an amazing performer and she does SO MUCH charity work!! And MOST of her fans are very nice people who don't bark worse than their bite. I mean, given what she promotes and how she is a good example to young people everywhere, through her music, actions, and decisions in life... SHE is a good example of a GOOD artist to be a fan of. ... Maybe it's a lack of communication or information available in English... but what good things has BigBang done??

So... I'm slowly becoming NOT a fan of BigBang... It's tough and painful because they were such a big part of my life growing up in kPop music... and I helped a friend write some parts of a fanfiction called "It Was All A Dream"... Even though I went to both their LA + OC concerts (Staples Center & Honda Center)... And I bought those little crown wands... I think... I want to be a fan of someone I can look up to and not feel ashamed of due to their discrepancies and the behavior of their fans...

Know what I mean?

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Dear BigBang... 

Your fans are getting scarier... so are your misbehaviors and style... I hope you guys grow up soon. Until then... take care and I hope you guys learn to do something good for the world!! I've been a fan for over a decade and... I guess, I'm ready to move on. 

Sincerely ~ Tea Chai